Monday Blues.....

Yes! Just like any other Mondays in the calender. But today was more depressing and frustrating. Honestly, nothing can makes me so much more emo than my job. And seriously, I hate most of my jobs, but at least time past faster when I was in audit compare to now. Same work load, but shitty stuff.

Just take today as an example, (cut it real short) I was told to have a discussion but I waited 1 hour plus for the big shot to come online. After discussion, I asked his permission to move back to office tomorrow, since it will be a total waste of time for me to pack and unpack, dismantle and setup. But I was told that I was supposed to pack last night so I could reached office before 9am and start setting up so I can online by 9am and waited 1 damn hour for the discussion to begin. I thought I was being rude enough to tell him 9am is not even my official working hour. Ooooh well, give and take. I don't mind discussing before work so I can utilised my working time to do whatever was told. But since, I already wasted the time for waiting the royal highness, why not waste the whole day of packing and unpacking, dismantling and setuping? If you actually think it is wise to do so. Yeaaaa.... So end up what I'd gotten was, "nevermind...forget about it..." How do you expect me to answer that?

I used to dread about being bonded for 4 years in a company, but I manage to get through like 1 and half year. Now, I can't barely see myself passing through 9 months of contract when only 3 months had passed!! This is worst than my previous job. *sigh* When can I really find a job that I really loves? Seriously..... Is my life going to be just like that. Keeps on complaining on stuff I hate. Well, I did try to like it. But it just didn't work out that well, and I need money to survive, so, I have to force myself to like it. And then complain about how much I hated it.

When you're young, people just tell you to be bold about what you dream of. Go out there and strive for what you like. Life is too short to do things that you don't like. But what to do, stuff that you don't like is the one that brings home food. And I guess I'm not that young to "go after your dream" already. Then again, I still feels and am still floating in the middle of nowhere, trying to decide what I want. One simple word to describe me, "H-O-P-E-L-E-S-S". *tadaaaaa*

Ooooh well, forgets the emo stuff. i realised lotsa people likes to view the songs I uploaded 3 years ago? Bella Notte. It's actually from a Disney movie, 'Lady and the Tramp'. So, imagine yourself in the city of Paris, hoping for some adventures and to find love. So, this is the night............................................