2 weeks had passed.....

Imagine how funny thing goes. They actually communicate without me knowing it. I know I'm being selfish most of the time. I won't know how it felt to be in anyone's shoe, because I can't control my feelings. So, how can I still have the rational to think in your position?

Work is bad yesterday. I lost my focus because the I bump into the 2 cuties in my audited division. And they both smiled at me!!~ *so sweeeeettttt*

Then, I stayed back to do the E-Learning on Islamic Banking, which totally kills me! Not gonna do again, man. But I don't think I can escape it. Left office right on the dot but I'm the only person left in the whole division. It's dark and creepy. @_@

Today was the total opposite. Both my cuties are on leave. I'm productive with work, eventhough I still haven't finish it yet. Gonna continue at home, which I only determine to finish 1 section. Hahahaha! I'm doomed. There goes my Saturday and Sunday. =(

Friday!!~ 1 of my cutie came to work. But he kinda apply leave in a weird way. =_=" ooooh well, none of my business. He's so pink-ish today. Hahahaha! Had an awesome Royce Chocolate today from Mei Ping's senior. Brought back work for Saturday and Sunday. I killed a lot of trees because of photocopy.

Had dinner at Gardens, The Curve, with my Serene babe and Winn. ^_^ it's been almost a month since I last see them. Miss!!~

After dinner, they went over to The Laundry while I'm heading home. When I reached home, I just don't feel like going in. I know I'm alone, there's nobody at home. But Christmas this year isn't the same anymore. Sudden heartache strikes me again. Lucky this time Wai Kin called and chatted with me until I settled down. Went in, shower and then Bryan calls. How random?!?

Tomorrow supposed to bring Yen Aun out for picciess taking on Christmas decoration, but I'm hooked up with work, so Chan Mei Ping is doing the job. My dad hates shopping and walking around, he'll end up in Starbucks or sometimes he chooses not to follow.

It's true that people said I'm living in denial. Because that's the only therapist for me to at least smile for a while. And I'm also being very defensive when people talks about my family. But this is what I feel right now. I know time will heal, but as for now, I have to bear with it.

Feliz Navidad mi padre. Buenas noches. *beso*


Luv,
*rachelle*