Stagnant Life or a Leap for 2019?

Dear Life,

It's moving to the end of the year soon. Again.....it got me thinking about this year. What have I achieved and what are my regrets. Honestly, things are just downhill for me this year. I really really hope I can get a new beginning next year. I really pray that things will actually be slightly better for me. Apart from that, I just want to be stronger emotionally, physically and also financially for my family. Being a single mom definitely doesn't feel good. People may see my exterior and thinking that I'm living a comfortable life, but they do not know how much I struggle to actually survive a day. I would still consider myself lucky in the sense that the father of my child is still paying for our living expenses, while I'm trying to get a full-time job. So, thanks to that, I'm still surviving, but of course I would need to bear listening to some insult and verbal abuse on that, but it's ok. I won't die from words. HAHAHA!!!~ Yeapz! Motherhood had thought me to be shameless. I can skip a few meals but my child is not gonna be doing that! Let's move on from such sap story........

I went back KL, of course, for work, weddings and more work. Got some time spent with my cousin sisters and aunty to walk around the mall for early christmas shopping too. Miniso is selling Marvel's stuff!!! Sooooo cool!!! I wanted to get a Spidey backpack for my little prince but it's actually quite pricey.


Look how cute is that!!!


On one trip, I took a train back to KL and there's unseen bugs on the couch and bit my leg!!! *goshhhhh* It was so itchy I regret I didn't bring my allergy medication. Sometimes, this is the reason why I prefer to drive myself, because you can't fully trust the public transport in Malaysia.


My all time favourite character! Harry Potter!!! Yes! I need to randomly snap a stupid pose of myself with the character. HAHAHA!!!~ My aunt bought a super mini size korean apple and as usual, force my cousin sister and me to finish it up because her fridge got no more space. T____T it's always like that. Been years and never change.


Another life incident to remember. I had a surgery to remove my first ever wisdom tooth. Well, because ther rest of my 3 wisdom teeth are growing well, straight down. But this bottom right was growing horizontally. It's been years already, I think more than 10 years, and finally it hit the tooth beside and I've been on painkiller for a week before I actually had the surgery. OMIGOSH!!!~ It was sooooo painful I really cried after the surgery. I felt the dentist actually using the saw to saw my tooth into a few pieces before removing it. GOSH!!! I hope I don't need to go through this shit again.


And I still have Eunice to come over to accompany me for late night soft serve ice cream to help me relive the pain. Yes, I'm allowed to eat cold stuff to stop the bleeding and swelling. Until 1 week later, I would need to go back to remove the stitches. And when I did that, the dentist said my wound area haven't really close up yet, but he's not going to stitch another time. I was told to be careful and just take care of it myself. *damnnnnnn*


2 random photos!! I'm amazed that I can still fit in the t-shirt I bought 10 years ago, during my 1st trip to Singapore, and that is also my ever first oversea trip with friends. HAHAHAHA!!! Actually I like this t-shirt from Nike because you can actually custom-made whatever wordings you want, but I just made it simple and behind is my initial and number 16. ^__^

Another picture is the cute little backpack my sister-in-law got for my little prince. How cute is that?!?! Superman for him and my nephew got the Ironman version. I actually put his snacks and hanky and I wanted to put his water bottle inside the backpack too, but my mom said the backpack will be heavier than him. That's impossible!!!! Then again, he got a loooooonnnnngggggg time to carry heeavy backpack when he enters primary 1. So, it's ok, I will let him off for now. HAHAHAHA!!


Chris came over to Penang for work and I got a chance to meet up with her and have a good chat. It's always nice to chat with her because she somehow understands what I'm going through right now. She's always supportive of me and talks to me in a very real friend kinda way, that sometimes she will scold me to wake me up to reality. HAHAHA!!!~ And I thought I love online shopping so much it's crazy...........she's worse than me! HAHAHA!!!~


Christmas decor is up in the mall!!! And this year I will have a different wish. I wish I can bring my little prince to experience a white Christmas someday, and I want to kiss my little prince under the mistletoe because I will always love him and I hope that even if next time he got a girlfriend and marry, he will still love me dearly. So, yeapz, I'm forcing him to love me forever! HAHAHAHA!!~


Homemade Thanksgiving Dinner with my cousin sisters and aunt. It was supposed to be a devil's chocolate cake, but it got disfigured, so my cousin sister asked me to revamp it into a parfait. HAHAHA!!~ As for the dish, we had lamb, chicken, salad and fragrance rice, and for the drinks will be virgin mojito. Honestly, I kinda miss mojito after drinking that. It's been years since I last had alcoholic drink, throughout my pregnancy and breastfeeding period, more than 2 years I think. *hmmmmm*




Mei Anne and I went to try this new cafe just outside our house that serves sourdough bread. OMIGOSH!!! It was delicious!!! But I had to say the price is quite steep for that. it's delicious but I will still consider the price for going there again, unless I have a super bad cravings for it.


Preparation for Soo Yin's wedding!! Before and after I took like an hour to curl my hair with the thong. I had to spray so much to make sure my curls actually last until I actually reach the wedding place. Usually I go to salon and it still doesn't last.





It's like a CBM gathering, with all my high school friends and the partners I don't know. HAHAHA!!~ But it was really fun that finally I gotta catch up with them. Usually I am forbidded to go out to such events or even meeting friends to catch up, because according to Mr. Jewish, it has no value-added and such people will not give me any benefit in life. *yeapz* a very sad upbringing from his family and a very different school of thought.




Mei Anne loves to spoil me with food!!! That's what I love about her. Because she doesn't mind going out to explore new places of food with me and Mei Ping, even though most of the time we kinda force her out. HAHAHA!!!~



My dear BFF!!! It's been years since I last meet her. OK, maybe only a year but I really miss the time that I gotta just chat with her about anything. Now that both of us are mothers and we are both godmother of each other's child. *awwwww* I just wish I can fly to Perth with my little prince and crash at her place for a week or two. I hope ou children can bond like us. Finally, meet up with my squad for a karaoke session and trust me, my mind was 50% checking on my phone, hopefully my mom will be able to put my little prince to bed. Unlike little Immy, little prince doesn't go to bed easily at new places. It took me almost an hour to put him to sleep the night before, so I kinda hope my mom will be able to handle him. He's really a handful. ^_^

Well, I guess that's all for now. I think I might post like 1 or 2 more before I end 2019's post. I know I know!! It's already end of December. But I hope I can make it for at least 1 more last post and I want to start my 2020 with a BAM! Hehehehe!!!

おやすみ !

Luv,
*rachelle*