Another Relationship Rant 2.0
Dear Life,
Today my friend just type me a very quick reminder of my situation.
2. If he going out with other woman affects you, it means you're still hung up on him (which you shouldn't have)
3. If he treats others better than your son, you and your son should just fuck him out of your lives
4. If you are in contact with him purely because of financial, then please act like a gold digger.
5. If you wanna be with him because you still love him, then please act all lovey dovey towards him. If he doesn't reciprocate after some time, then please fyck him out of your life
6. If you're in contact with him purely because he's the father of your child, you can fuck him off because your child deserves a better father
So, what exactly happened today??? Actually it happened since last night. (I decided to delete No.1 because it's pretty harsh)He sent a videoclip about husband having affair. I can't blow up because I told him before he wants to sleep with other girl, can he just break off with me first, since I am of no value to him. And why must he bring the girl to my house because it's just a small condo. He can bring her back to his 3-storey house. Or better just pay for a 5-star hotel. Since I'm always his liability, the most I can do is starve my meals a few days to save enough for him to spend on the hotel.
Looking back on how I blow up at him, especially after I saw his messages to other girls on "muakx muakx kiss kiss", I really went overboard and being over-sensitive.
So, I text him today and call him today, he totally ignoreeeeeeeddddd me. Initially, I thought he was having some trouble, or his family was having trouble. I got so worried that I try to call him every few hours. And when he picked up the phone, he just replied me, "nothing happened. I just don't want to pick up your call nor do I want to reply you". WOW! This is what I get from being worry.
I asked my friend if I found him texting all this kinda message, is it normal? Because he told me, it's normal for man to flirt with girls, it's normal for man to text "kisses and muakxx" messages for work purposes. My friend replied me that it's normal. But if her husband did that to her, she will whack him and ask him to at least respect himself and respect his wife. But "respect" was not in his dictionary to me, to begin with.
So, right now his decision is to stay in a relationship where he can freely go out and flirt with other girls.
Why do I need this kinda relationship? Honestly, I really wish I can just do as what my friend says, just be a gold digger. Then, I can live my life happily.
Haihzzzzzz.....
When will this actually end? I just want to have a normal relationship with someone who loves me, cares for m, and respect me. Isn't it simple? Or maybe my simple is too complicated. No wonder he can't wait to get rid of me.
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