Relationship Rant

 Dear Life,

I was updating my Dayre at 1.30am. My brain is processing a lot of nonsense. I'm tired and I just want to let go and forgets. It just makes me wonder, does he travel 4 hours up just to find an argument with me? Or does he feels much better after making me feel horrible? Sometimes I believe that his happiness is based on my misery #dayrerelationship

Have you met a person that vice his opinion to you, and when its your turn to speak, you only manage to utter 1 word and he asked you to stop talking, turn his back at you and leave? How do you deal with such a situation? I felt so horrible as in why can someone just disrespect and disregard someone else, not to mention that person is supposed to be your partner. But do I not even get slight respect as a human being?

I went back to my mom and she advised me one thing. "You chose him yourself. So right now, you can cry, you can complain to your family or even your best friends. By end of the day, you will still suck it up and go back to him and withstand any grievance you feel." Literally, the most straightforward sentence will be, "I'm just allowing him to bully/disrespect me." Nothing much I should be talking about.

I felt even more pathetic right now is because it's 1am and I have no one I can talk to about. So, here I am, venting my grievance and thoughts over Dayre.

Maybe I'm not suitable to be in a relationship. #relationshipadviceneeded

If you found out that your partner texting another girl "good morning" and "good night" but he didn't even bother to do it to you. If you found his message to other girls contains "kisses and muakxxx". And if you found out that your partner spends most of his time texting another girl when he's away from you and even when he is with you. Then, when you walk over, he deleted some of the messages and archived the conversation.

What do you think???

Honestly, I blew up! I thought it was disrespectful and a total betrayal of our relationship. But he thinks that I'm just over-sensitive and it's normal.

Why do I need to suck up to it, every single time he walks away from me??? Do I really not deserve a single pinch of happiness?? Or am I really seeing the whole relationship wrongly?

Penny for your thoughts.

Luv,
*rachelle*